How much, how long?

 I've battled this earth, foreign, local, family, friend  women, people and now God? How much of this violence can just one person take? How long will I go on? I'm not happy, not got anything in return other than victory, victory from oppression, arrogance, jealousy, and from extinction. There are so many like me in this world, I hope to give them something that I never had when I started this fight. Knowledge & power!