Wife Girlfriend

Do I pity myself, that the horror of ZoD unleashes from women. ZoD is not real so we call whatever is going to happen to me through him, my spouse or girlfriend. Exercising my way is the only solution to this problem, but for how long. She never can understand what is going on, only is able to clearly admit that she is jealous. Then I must help her to cover up. This is like a deficiency in my relationship. I must love her, even if she is the only danger to my life. I care for her and must watch over her, keep her away from harms way. I know she is the tragedy that ensues, I have nothing else to give. I must keep her alive and safe, even if she is a threat to my existence, I must keep her good. I don't know even if she could ever understand me. Like she is diseased with a zombie virus. But I love her. Over the years she has become my ultimate foe. I keep away from her sights. I stay away from the grid. Could she find out where I am ? She is Narus incarnate for me. A trio represents all women, and all Narus for me. How much of the hate can I take. So I stay out of her sights and scanners. But I love. Later on when we got her out, we all looked like clones brothers and sisters of each other. But ZoD only comes through women, it is done for me. So I stay weary of them, they have ultimate power of annihilation, so a special treatment for them is required. Even as clones, they get vulnerable, so we keep them as ZoD, a terror for me. Giving to Nadia,Erin,Katie,Gyanyan stops the terror, turns it into a real phenomenon. But she comes to take me as Claire. This is all the ZoD stands for me. A D-Day terror attack. This is the crucible for me.

I can't sustain my way for long